Current mood:	angry
Current music:	the Firearms - Birth Defect

stuff
gawd, it's been a long time...

For whatever reason, I stepped away, and I liked the idea of not writing but still having it. And now a bunch of shit continues to bother me, and Facebook just isn't the right venue.

So...the number one thing bugging me at the moment is math. I got an A in College Algebra with a shit-eating grin, but this Pre-Calculus is hard and while I've tried to keep a good attitude, it sure is hard.

Having the first three weeks of class without a book sure didn't help.

Now I'm in this old familiar place where doing homework is really utterly pointless. It feels like all I'm doing is taking a number and chewing on it for a while, then sticking it under the desk. Doing homework seems more harmful than helpful. I can read the book all I want and it's totally not familiar. Then I read my notes, and my notes made sense at the time, but not anymore. I sit down and I try to force myself through the homework and maybe I'll figure it out. All I get for my trouble is page after page of half-finished problems (maybe I'll go back to them later?) and an ever-tightening throat. This is not a good use of my time.

And what I really cannot get over is this recurring theme where the stuff I'm learning seems so counterintuitive. Algebra made a ton of sense. This is bullshit by comparison.

I could also go on about how my bank account isn't too healthy, and I can't keep track of which bills I paid and how much my roommates owe me, and how I forgot to submit my tuition reimbursement forms (and will have to eat $400, except I'll probably do so badly in this class that I'd have to pay the full price anyway), and how things with my gentleman friend aren't going so well, and my wrist hurts, and I'm fatter than ever, and WHINE WHINE WHINE.

But that's why Dog gave us Livejournal.