Current mood:	tired
Current music:	Bad Religion - You Don't Belong Here

HAY GUYS!!!!!1!!!
yeah kids, let's have ourselves an update, in classic bulleted list form:

-got highly-stressful but decent-paying job at the same hospital I was working at two years ago
-got a boy...thing. Yes, a boything. He's fun to play with, that's for sure.
-science knocks ever louder at my door, as in, going back to school
-am terrified...TERRIFIED...at the prospect of returning to school, but I feel I have no choice
-might return to ballet class again tomorrow
-hanging out with punks all the time, as life should be
-playing my bass all the time, as life should be
-failing at my New Year's Resolution to catch up on sewing
-fighting uphill battle to stop mentally checking out all the time
-mother trying to use me for therapy in a passive aggressive way
-life ending one minute at a time

School is the most troubling thing right now. I really, really like my freedom now. But I hate this feeling of rapidly going nowhere in my current "career", especially when all the job counselling points to science, and my future paycheck needs also point to science. Along with my happiness needs, and enjoy-your-job-and-excel needs. Not to mention my still-sort-of-fresh youth and relative lack of responsibilities right now. I may need to do the mature thing and put my immaturity to its best use.

*sigh* I could really use a sugar daddy right now.