I'm not sure how I feel about that. That sort of situation makes my brain lock up, not open up. I guess I haven't really tried that too much, but every time I came close to such a situation, I started doing bad things to myself.
I kind of feel like a loser for not responding well to situations like that, but what are you gonna do?
In spite of my good 2007, I am still in a rut of sorts and tired of having jobs that I am ashamed to discuss. There's a certain job I'm hoping to get. I'm kind of scared. I'm mad at myself for being scared, and I wish I was better at being ambitious.